It really is. There is always inspiration to be found in moments where I feel like I'm lacking faith. There is always something to remind me that I have no reason to doubt how this life plan is all playing out. And the only reason why I oscillate between having faith and lacking faith in this concept is simply that I am working through my karma from this life and lives past. For every time that I felt I was small and worthless, that created a groove in my mind for those kind of gnarly, Self-destructive seeds to be planted. Now, in this incarnation, it is my mission to create new grooves in my mind, tilling the figurative soil with nourishing practices so that it becomes fertile ground for the shiny seeds of truth to be placed in. It's about burning away the gnarly, Self-destructive seeds with the tapas of devoted practice and turning old, stale ideas about myself into ash that will promptly exit my system, as they are of no use any longer.
Twenty-four hours a day, my job is to replace old concepts with bright, new concepts that enhance my own worth and purpose in this world through practices that make me feel fearless, light and joyful. These practices can be as simple as reading inspiring poetry, going for a walk, eating at two new restaurants in one day, and so on. Recognizing and breaking patterns that do not serve my happiness. Truly, it is going to take all of the ups and downs that it needs to take for me to really assimilate that I am whole, and not alone in all of this. That no matter what happens, I'm going to be safe, loved and secure, through and through.
There is too much love in this world to convince me that the latter isn't true.
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