Taking Fear to Lunch

Here is what that looks like:

-Actually eating alone in a restaurant that doesn't have WiFi, and therefore nothing to distract me from my boredom, a constant babble of thoughts and subsequent loneliness; I've also found that the distraction of anything external has an extremely short shelf life. Soon enough, I'm back at square one, dealing with what I was unsuccessfully trying to distract myself from in the first place.

-Realizing that I don't know it all, therefore making my bruised ego get fired up and then submit.

-Making new acquaintances when I could just as easily be isolated and bog myself down with judgment.

-Doing something or going someplace new, which stirs up the pot of normality and routine that the mind gets comfortable with very quickly; creating new pathways for the brain.

-Letting go of future plans that I treat as my life raft; bypassing the present is not where it's at.

-Growing accustomed to the darkness that seems oppressive right when I turn off my bedside lamp to go to sleep; all of distractions stop and I'm left with myself and that sinking feeling in my heart and stomach that tends to happen; in short, learning how to self-soothe, just as I did when I was an infant.

-Actually exposing my fear to anyone reading this, which allows me to further release my grip on it and provide a basis for people to relate and find solace where they would normally feel anything but that when confronting these beasts.

Good luck, friends.