Gypsy

It's thrilling, knowing that you don't have to settle. I've come to realize that I have some commitment issues. Commitment to a job and commitment to a place to live in has been something that I've grappled with over the past 48 hours. The kids that I teach are wonderful, no noubt. However, Krabi is a bit too sleepy of a town for me, judging from my experience for the past week. Yes, it's close to gorgeous tourist attractions like Ko Phi Phi and Ao Nang, but it's not easy to get there without a moto or a car--and with school obligations that my Thai teachers have on weekends, it will be even more challenging to go somewhere exotic and have fun. Sawng taews (public transit) are not very plentiful or conveniently located here. Plus, I don't have any friends here. Dilemma.

Restlessness in my system makes it very hard to be present, except when I'm teaching. These little lights are a godsend. However, when the teaching stops, I'm hit with the reality that I will again be packing up my things and headed north to Chiang Mai. My attention turns to the future and remains fixed on it. What is in store for me there you ask? Plenty! Temples, yoga studios to teach at and study at, the potential of finally learning Thai massage, food that won't make me sick, a bountiful expat community for me to make friends, and an interesting, colorful culture. I didn't come here to just live here, I came here to thrive. Chiang Mai is the one place in Thailand that I have always wanted to go to--not just because of the amazing things I have heard about it, but because I feel drawn to it on a very deep level. Something is calling me to it, and what that thing is isn't very clear. And I'm totally ok with that. I have enough trust to know that this kind of instinct is not whimsical--it is a desire coming from a place of Truth. 8 weeks and counting until I embark on my new journey.